Wishes...

Merry Christmas!!!!

May all women who are praying and hoping to have a child be granted their wish this Christmas.

Baby dust to All....

So Much Heat....

Had another appointment with my OB last Friday and again I was emotional. It seems that I am not truly over yet with my rebirth.

I was a bit emotional when she asked me how I was and I said that I was a bit disappointed because I had my period. While mentioning this I started crying, can you believe how emotional I am!!!!

Anyway, she asked me to explain in detail how I felt. I said I felt disappointed, frustrated, impatient and mad. She asked what exactly was running in my head. I said that I really felt bad because I was really hoping that we'll be successful this time and I couldn't help but ask how come other people doesn't have a hard time conceiving while here I was doing everything just to be able to conceive. She said I understand how you feel and she said it seems that I am not yet fully convinced that I will be able to conceive. That I still have some fear and emotional baggage left after that miscarriage. So her advise was to be positive about everything and try to analyze whether there is still that fear in me. I should be emotionally prepared and be fully convinced that I will be able to conceive again and that I will have a healthy pregnancy.

So she gave me part of my constitutional remedy to release all that leftover emotional baggage in to be able to move on fully. After that she also checked my cervix and I was really releasing a lot of heat. My discharge was also brownish which means that I am also having some liver flush. Tying it all together, the liver represents our emotions as well and the reason why I was having some release was a result of my emotional turmoil last week. This also explained why there was so much heat when she was checking my cervix.

A new medicine was also prescribed to improve my cervical mucous in time for my ovulation period. I'll be seeing her again by January and she said that maybe this time it will already be a pre natal check up.

I said, I hope so too....

Moving On With My Journey

Not pregnant yet since I got my period yesterday. I had a bout of depression and it was my husband who actually gave me the strength to up and about again. He said that maybe Rico and Ramon will be Christmas babies. He really made me smile when he said that and I quickly recovered from my depression.

Anyway, I started taking my pre-natal multi vitamins and epa (eicosapentaenoic acid) and dha (docosahexaenoic acid) as prescribed by my doctor.

This was the first time I heard about EPA and DHA so I asked what was the relevance of this supplement for pregnant women. My doctor said that it will help in the brain and retina development of the fetus and during the first few months after birth. DHA is also thought to lower the risks of premature birth, low birth weight, and post-partum depression. I also read articles in the internet and a lot were saying that this supplement is not only beneficial for pregnant women but is also beneficial to improve one's health.

Moving on with my journey :)

Signs....

Had my day 22 blood test for progesterone and the results were good.

Result : 9.36
Reference Value at Luteal Phase: 1.7 - 27.0 ng/mL

Based on all the blood test, it just showed that everything is normal and that I indeed had an ovulation this cycle.

I went to see my doctor earlier and we discussed my updates.

When I told her about Rico and Ramon she had goose bumps. She said this was a strong signal that I'll be getting pregnant real soon. Looks like I might be having twins if I do get pregnant. I also researched what the name Rico means and I was really surprised that it is somehow a derivative of my husbands name Ricky. I think this means that one of our child will have a strong resemblance and similar personality. Ramon on the other hand means "Godlike".

By the way, I also had another dream 2 nights ago and this time I was giving birth again to twins. In this dream, I had such an easy labor that in one go or in one push both babies came out of my womb. It was so easy that I was in fact comparing it with my friends and I couldn't really relate on how it could be so painful.

Then, she also checked my basal body temperature graph and it showed a good reading. It would have been better if we had a longer contact (about a week or 2 more intercourse during my ovulation) but we only managed two. Although I mentioned that during our contact, I had egg white mucous.

Lastly, she checked my visceral fat index. Historically, it was hovering at 43-50% fat which is too high and not ideal for getting pregnant. Surprisingly, today my index was only 16% which is so ideal for twins.

Based on all our analysis, everything is aligning so well that's why she was very positive that it will be happening soon. She already prescribed me to take pre-natal vitamins and calcium.

At this point, I can only hope and pray that I'll get pregnant soon.