Tuesday, December 9, 2008

@ 5 months

I am officially 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant as of today. I have been too lazy lately that's why I have not been able to update my blog. Plus the fact that I can't really stay long in front of the computer because I easily get a headache.

I decided to update this today because we reached another milestone in my pregnancy. Today I had my congenital anomaly scan at St. Luke's. Weeks before having the scan, my prayer this time was for a normal and healthy baby. That the scan result will yield a very good result for us. It was also the time to find out the gender of the baby.

The scan lasted for about 15-20 minutes. From the head down to the toes, each one was shown and explained to us. Everything was normal!!! Thank God for that. The kidneys, heart, number of toes/fingers, no cleft chin, bladder, etc. Heartbeat at 160 RPM, good amniotic fluid, and no placenta previa.

Then the gender, we are having a baby girl. As in this is 100% sure because she showed it several times during the scan. She was also very active the whole time, she kept on moving around that's why the ob-sonologist had to keep on chasing her to be able to show us each part.

When I heard that everything was normal and that we will be having a baby girl, I was teary eyed. I actually wanted to cry but I tried hard not to because I was embarrassed. I am really having a hard time expressing how happy I am right now. Its similar to how I felt when I found out I was pregnant.

After the holidays, we will start buying all her stuff. Also, we need to settle her name as well. Since hubby and I have been calling the baby Rico since she was weeks old, all the while thinking that the baby is a boy. So now I refer to her as little girl or baby girl since we don't have a name yet.

My prayer right now is to continue having a healthy pregnancy, safe delivery and a baby for each of the couple who has been trying to conceive.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

What Changed?

A lot of things changed as soon as I found out I was pregnant....

  • I don't go out that much anymore. At most I go out once a week or twice a week if i had to go to the doctor.
  • I'm not allowed to go up and down the stairs. So most the days, my world evolves around our bedroom and computer room. I take my meals in our room and spends around 30 minutes in front of the computer. Can't really stand staying long in front of the computer because I get so dizzy.
  • I used to love fried chicken but now I hate it to death. Just thinking about fried chicken makes me want to puke.
  • Our toilet bowl has been my best companion since week 5 of my pregnancy. We are together at least 5 times a day.
  • I started my cravings with crabs then watermelon then ripe mangoes then ice cream then sweet and sour soup then boiled peanuts and so on and so forth. I pity my husband because he is going crazy figuring out what I want to eat. I maybe craving for something right this instant but a few hours later or the next day I don't want that food anymore. Not that I eat a lot, I only eat small portions otherwise i'll end up vomiting.
  • I tend to get really sleepy after eating but I can't really lie down because for sure when I wake up I'll just vomit. So at times I have to wait at leas an hour or two after eating before I take a nap. But if at times I can't really help it, i just lie down and take my nap then prepare myself to suffer the consequences.
  • I don't have the energy to fix myself despite the fact that I only go out once a week. I am just too lazy which so unlike me. I haven't had a haircut for 2 months.
  • Can't eat raw food and vegetables. The vegetables I was surprised but as advised by my ob, we really can't be sure with all the pesticides being used right now so its better to have it cooked. So, no salads for me :(
These are just some that I can distinctly remember right now. I am sure that I am not the only pregnant person who is going through the same thing.

Being pregnant is no joke but for someone who has waited for such a long time to get pregnant, I don't mind going through all these things at all.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Prayer to Saint Gerard: A Novena For Expectant Mothers

Prayer of An Expectant Mother

Beloved servant of Jesus Christ,
Perfect imitator
Of our meek
And humble Savior
And devoted child
Of the Mother of God,
Enkindle within my heart
One spark
Of that heavenly fire
Of charity which glowed
In yours and made you
A seraph of love.

O glorious St. Gerard,
Because like you
Divine Master,
You bore without murmur
Or complaint
The calumnies
Of wicked men
When falsely accused of crime,
You have been raised up by God
As the patron and protector
Of expectant mothers.

Preserve me
In the dangers of motherhood
And shield the child I now bear,
That it may be brought safely
To the light of day
And receive the sacrament of Baptism.

Hail Mary (3 times)

Monday, September 8, 2008

Thank You...

Words are not enough to express how thankful I am with this wonderful gift, our baby (babies???). I just couldn't contain how I really feel because its been such a long journey for us and now we finally receive the greatest gift.

Thank you God.

At this point the only thing I wish for is to carry this baby (babies???) to full term and that he/they will be normal and healthy. I don't want any other gift for my birthday except for that.

I really could not ask for anything else.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

All Day Sickness.....

I'm at my 6th week of pregnancy and my all day sickness has started. Since Monday I have not been able to hold on to my food from breakfast till dinner. Its not just morning sickness for me but an all day sickness. I suddenly lost my appetite unlike the past 2 weeks wherein i was really eating with gusto. This is really new to me since I didn't experience this in my last pregnancy.

But who's complaining, for someone who waited 5 years to be pregnant. I love it :)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Just to continue my story from my previous post, we did proceed with the IUI last July 31, a day after we saw this new OB. Based on the ultrasound, it looks like I already ovulated but he said let's proceed with the IUI since everything seemed ready.

So with no medicines, no injections just the needed sperm washing we did the IUI. I did not really have high hopes that it will be successful since we have been trying to get pregnant for 5 years and I've heard that the success rate for IUI is relatively low.

For the next 2 weeks after that I limited my activities. I didn't even go to the gym. A few days after my IUI, my breasts were tender already. So I felt that I was going to have my period since I normally have tender breasts a week before my period is due.

I saw my homeopathic OB and I shared everything that happened. She said it seemed like everything just fell into place. She did an IE and she said she felt some movements on my right ovary. There was an on-going activity there and when she checked my ultrasound she was right that my dominant follicle was on the right ovary. At that point both us were hoping for the best.

Then I had a dream that my baby will be born April 1. Upon waking up, I immediately counted whether it was the right month if I was indeed pregnant, it was like 3 weeks ahead of my due date. It gave me hope that I was actually pregnant but I didn't really want to raise my expectations because I would really be devastated if it turned out negative.

I started having cravings and was always hungry. Again, I didn't about it that much since these are the same symptoms when I'm about to get my period.

The entire 2 weeks I kept on praying and even bargaining with God. To the extent I offered several sacrifices just for our wish to come true.

It was the longest days of my life. I couldn't wait to reach day 30 of my cycle to take the test. So day 14, before going to sleep, I took a test and there was a very faint 2nd line. I thought it was just nothing and it was a false positive. Day 29, again before going to sleep because I couldn't wait for my first morning urine, I saw 2 lines. It was positive but the second line was not as clear as the first line. But in that instant I somehow knew I was pregnant. I couldn't wait for morning to come to do another test. I couldn't sleep, I was too excited. I slept at around 4 am and woke up at 6 am. Took the test, cried buckets of tears. I was literally sobbing and woke up my husband to share the news. We were just hugging for a few minutes while I kept on crying. After that, I was just too excited and couldn't go back to sleep. My husband called my mother in law to share the news while I called my Mom. I was crying again while talking to them because I was just too ecstatic about the pregnancy.

I had my first ultrasound yesterday and everything is normal and okay.

I really need prayers that this will be a healthy pregnancy and baby.

My prayer goes to all who has been hoping to have a baby as well. God Bless You!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Here Goes......

Where do I start?

I came to a point wherein I didn't really want to face this particular journey of mine. I was at a stage wherein I was just cruising. Not really thinking of what's happening, where to go, what will happen etc. I just didn't want to deal with it at all.

I kept myself busy with mundane stuff. As in literally I was just contented in reading books, going out, shopping, watching tv and got so involved in a lot of things. Because I knew that we were at that point that we already need to make major decisions.

After a very serious discussion with my husband plus all the other pressure surrounding us (my husband being an only child), we finally made a decision to try iui or ivf. Even though we have decided this, it still took me sometime to discuss this with my homeopathic doctor. Why? Because all of my fears and apprehensions re-surfaced. Do I need to do all the treatments to address my immunological problem? I need to go through all the work-ups again, medicines and injections left and right. Most importantly, I really wanted to conceive the natural way. I wanted it to be with my homeopathic doctor because I was so at ease with her.

Unfortunately, during the course of our treatment my husband got so tired of it plus the consideration of our family I had to give in. I can not insist on what I want because marriage is a partnership plus the fact that time is really running out on us. I'll be turning 35 in 2 months and we all know that this further make it complicated and harder for us.

I talked to m homeopathic doctor and she doesn't really see any problem with this. She said that after all the preparations we have done, she thinks that I will be ready for iui or ivf. She said I don't need to worry because she will still be there and will continue to see me throughout this process. She also requested me to undergo CST (craniosacral theraphy) to prepare my body. After talking to her with the assurance that she will still be there to guide me,I felt better.

So what was left to do was to again shop for an OB or reproductive endocrinologist. I researched and asked around for a really good doctor. Alas, it took me again another month before finally deciding to start consulting a reproductive endocrinologist. Why, because I had to prepare myself emotionally on this new endeavor. I thought I was over this part of seeking a new doctor but then again circumstances right now does not allow this.

Yesterday was my scheduled appointment with my new doctor. So, we explained everything and what we wanted to happen. Fortunately, I really didn't have much of a hard time. I was at ease with him and he explained everything. Our consultation lasted for an hour and a half. After much discussion, we agreed that we will try iui first and if it does not succeed then we will proceed to ivf.

After that, he did my ultrasound to check if everything is ok and ready. He also did a sort of trial iui/ivf to see how will i respond. He also checked if there is a need for me to undergo HSG and to check my egg count as well as if there are follicles. Everything went smoothly, everything was clear. There was a dominant follicle on my left ovary and he said we can immediately proceed to IUI. Given the current conditions he does not see the need to do any preparations in order for us to to the IUI.

So,ill be seeing him again tomorrow because he want to check if that dominant follicle will continue to increase and from there we will also decide when to do the IUI.

At this point, I am just hoping and praying that it will be successful.

For all those who will be able to read this, I am hoping that you can say a little prayer for me and that we will be successful.

Sorry for the super long post.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Back from a Long Hiatus!!

Sorry to all those who bothered to dropped by and didn't get any response from me. I just didn't want to write since January. I didn't even bother to visit my blogs. It was like I was a completely different person for the past 6 months. I just hibernated !!!

Anyway, just a quick update, still "not" pregnant and is going through some tough decisions right now regarding where to go from here in order for us to conceive. Today might not be the right time to write about what's going on since I just got into the groove of writing again.

I'll be updating this again and will relate what we have been going through for the past few months in order to conceive.

Thanks again for all those who bothered to drop by and read my blog.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Attempted Healing w/ Father Fernando

As mentioned in my previous post, I was planning to attend the healing mass of Father Fernando Suarez at the National Shrine Miraculous Medal at Sucat Paranaque. Left my house at 7 am and we were there before 8. Imagine our surprise when we got there because the line was super long. As mentioned in the news, it was approximately 2 kilometers long. Since we were not prepared to line up that long, meaning we didn't have water, chairs, umbrella, etc. we decided to leave and just try to look for another schedule.

In trying to find our his next schedules, I browsed his website again. Imagine my dismay when I checked again when he visited my hometown's parish last July 2007, my Mom was even one of the coordinators. I was so mad at myself after seeing that, I should have listened to my Mom when she invited us for the healing mass. The only reason why I didn't go was because it was way too early at 9 am, had to leave the house at 7:30 am. I am not a morning person and at that time I really didn't know what who he was and what he is capable of doing. I am just to stupid and mad at myself. Well, they always say "nasa huli ang pagsisi"!!!!

Unfortunately, the next best schedule and location is on Feb 1 but the thing is I'll be out of town during that time with relatives visiting from China. The second one is on Feb 6, this is also the Chinese New Year's eve so again I can't go because we have a scheduled family dinner.

Oh well, I just pray that another opportunity will come my way again.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008


Came from my doctor yesterday for my regular check-up. Nothing unusual about how we started our consult. But I did tell her that I had a weird menstruation, weird basal body temperature and weird cravings after my period.

First weird part was that I still had sore breasts on the first day of my period. Then upon checking my temp it was also unusually hight. My temp was on the same range during my ovulation period.

Then my period was just overnight. I had my spotting, followed by a heavy flow after lunch on day 1 and after lunch on day 2 it was back to spotting again.

The craziest thing was that I still had lower back pain (I usually experience this before I get my period) plus obsessive craving on pizza. I had pizza for like 3 days in that week.

I continued to have lower back pain well onto my ovulation period (I also experience this during my ovulation period). So my doc was saying i might be pregnant or had a miscarriage or had an ectopic pregnancy, I said I doubt it. I think I'd know if I was pregnant.

So appease both of us she requested for an ultrasound and true enough I was not pregnant. I'll be seeing her again on Friday to discuss the results of the ultrasound.

Hmm, what was that all about? It was just so weird.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Healing by a Priest

I heard about this healing priest, Father Fernando Suarez through the news and another girl talker friend mentioned him to me. Then I remember my Mom telling me several months back to attend the healing mass of a certain priest and true enough its the same priest. So for the past week or so, I kept on encountering his name and what he can do.

After hearing from my GT friend about his schedule, I researched about him and got hold of his schedule. So I asked my new friend (met her through this blog) if she want to go and try to have a healing with Father Fernando. She said yes so we're going next week.

Then last night while having coffee with hubby's friends, they also mentioned him and is in fact a family friend of this couple. Hmm, since like the universe is telling me to go see this priest.

Why, maybe because he can help us have a baby. I heard that he has healed a lot of infertile couples and are now proud parents.

He heals all sorts of sickness and since I feel that there is nothing wrong in trying out all possible means, might as well give it a try :)

Friday, January 11, 2008

Traumatized Cervix

Just came from my doctor today and our main topic during my consultation was my cervix. She said that there is something that is going on that's why I noticed all these changes.

Just a background, my menstruation never really went back to the way it used to after my D&C. Now its very light and very short. During my last menses, it was just 2 days then on my 3rd day my discharge was brownish and thick. According to her, these are similar discharges after one has had a miscarriage. Apparently, after the physiological release, its not time for the actual physical release.

I was telling my doctor that my cervix was really traumatized during my D&C because she didn't really want to dilate. My OB at that time placed several medicines just to soften my cervix to make it easy for her to do the D&C. It really took time before it softened. This actually just occurred to me while we were discussing what is causing my brownish discharge. My OB said that this might also be an indication that there might be some inflammation going on and this should be addressed because this will also contribute to my having difficulty in conceiving.

Another observation she had was that I was starting to be in touch with my body. The mere fact that I started referring to my cervix and that I was expressing her feelings meant that I almost over in my healing process.

All in all she was very happy with my developments. She just reminded me to be very observant on my body and to take note of any changes, movements, etc.

After the medicine she gave me, my cervix will hopefully be fully recovered from the trauma.