I AM FINALLY PREGNANT!!!

Just to continue my story from my previous post, we did proceed with the IUI last July 31, a day after we saw this new OB. Based on the ultrasound, it looks like I already ovulated but he said let's proceed with the IUI since everything seemed ready.

So with no medicines, no injections just the needed sperm washing we did the IUI. I did not really have high hopes that it will be successful since we have been trying to get pregnant for 5 years and I've heard that the success rate for IUI is relatively low.

For the next 2 weeks after that I limited my activities. I didn't even go to the gym. A few days after my IUI, my breasts were tender already. So I felt that I was going to have my period since I normally have tender breasts a week before my period is due.

I saw my homeopathic OB and I shared everything that happened. She said it seemed like everything just fell into place. She did an IE and she said she felt some movements on my right ovary. There was an on-going activity there and when she checked my ultrasound she was right that my dominant follicle was on the right ovary. At that point both us were hoping for the best.

Then I had a dream that my baby will be born April 1. Upon waking up, I immediately counted whether it was the right month if I was indeed pregnant, it was like 3 weeks ahead of my due date. It gave me hope that I was actually pregnant but I didn't really want to raise my expectations because I would really be devastated if it turned out negative.

I started having cravings and was always hungry. Again, I didn't about it that much since these are the same symptoms when I'm about to get my period.

The entire 2 weeks I kept on praying and even bargaining with God. To the extent I offered several sacrifices just for our wish to come true.

It was the longest days of my life. I couldn't wait to reach day 30 of my cycle to take the test. So day 14, before going to sleep, I took a test and there was a very faint 2nd line. I thought it was just nothing and it was a false positive. Day 29, again before going to sleep because I couldn't wait for my first morning urine, I saw 2 lines. It was positive but the second line was not as clear as the first line. But in that instant I somehow knew I was pregnant. I couldn't wait for morning to come to do another test. I couldn't sleep, I was too excited. I slept at around 4 am and woke up at 6 am. Took the test, cried buckets of tears. I was literally sobbing and woke up my husband to share the news. We were just hugging for a few minutes while I kept on crying. After that, I was just too excited and couldn't go back to sleep. My husband called my mother in law to share the news while I called my Mom. I was crying again while talking to them because I was just too ecstatic about the pregnancy.

I had my first ultrasound yesterday and everything is normal and okay.

I really need prayers that this will be a healthy pregnancy and baby.

My prayer goes to all who has been hoping to have a baby as well. God Bless You!

Here Goes......

Where do I start?

I came to a point wherein I didn't really want to face this particular journey of mine. I was at a stage wherein I was just cruising. Not really thinking of what's happening, where to go, what will happen etc. I just didn't want to deal with it at all.

I kept myself busy with mundane stuff. As in literally I was just contented in reading books, going out, shopping, watching tv and got so involved in a lot of things. Because I knew that we were at that point that we already need to make major decisions.

After a very serious discussion with my husband plus all the other pressure surrounding us (my husband being an only child), we finally made a decision to try iui or ivf. Even though we have decided this, it still took me sometime to discuss this with my homeopathic doctor. Why? Because all of my fears and apprehensions re-surfaced. Do I need to do all the treatments to address my immunological problem? I need to go through all the work-ups again, medicines and injections left and right. Most importantly, I really wanted to conceive the natural way. I wanted it to be with my homeopathic doctor because I was so at ease with her.

Unfortunately, during the course of our treatment my husband got so tired of it plus the consideration of our family I had to give in. I can not insist on what I want because marriage is a partnership plus the fact that time is really running out on us. I'll be turning 35 in 2 months and we all know that this further make it complicated and harder for us.

I talked to m homeopathic doctor and she doesn't really see any problem with this. She said that after all the preparations we have done, she thinks that I will be ready for iui or ivf. She said I don't need to worry because she will still be there and will continue to see me throughout this process. She also requested me to undergo CST (craniosacral theraphy) to prepare my body. After talking to her with the assurance that she will still be there to guide me,I felt better.

So what was left to do was to again shop for an OB or reproductive endocrinologist. I researched and asked around for a really good doctor. Alas, it took me again another month before finally deciding to start consulting a reproductive endocrinologist. Why, because I had to prepare myself emotionally on this new endeavor. I thought I was over this part of seeking a new doctor but then again circumstances right now does not allow this.

Yesterday was my scheduled appointment with my new doctor. So, we explained everything and what we wanted to happen. Fortunately, I really didn't have much of a hard time. I was at ease with him and he explained everything. Our consultation lasted for an hour and a half. After much discussion, we agreed that we will try iui first and if it does not succeed then we will proceed to ivf.

After that, he did my ultrasound to check if everything is ok and ready. He also did a sort of trial iui/ivf to see how will i respond. He also checked if there is a need for me to undergo HSG and to check my egg count as well as if there are follicles. Everything went smoothly, everything was clear. There was a dominant follicle on my left ovary and he said we can immediately proceed to IUI. Given the current conditions he does not see the need to do any preparations in order for us to to the IUI.

So,ill be seeing him again tomorrow because he want to check if that dominant follicle will continue to increase and from there we will also decide when to do the IUI.

At this point, I am just hoping and praying that it will be successful.

For all those who will be able to read this, I am hoping that you can say a little prayer for me and that we will be successful.

Sorry for the super long post.